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One of the things about life that is quite difficult in my opinion is deciding how much meaning there is in the universe. It is especially difficult because so many things happen that make me think that everything has meaning but then things happen that make me think nothing does. I am sure that the answer is that some things do and some don't but the frustrating thing is that that's the worst. That's the problem with all human existence. If everything had meaning then one could proceed understanding that everything one did was important. If nothing did then one could simply accept that one's actions were free and without repercussion. But without any black and white understanding, everything is all muddy and annoying. blah.