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I have problems listening to G. Hobyah. He says that all my fears are illusory, but like all my other illusions, they're mine, and that makes them hard to let go of. He's shown up a few times recently and I really need to learn to listen to him. I really wish that I could.

I feel like I want to say something, but I can't think of what it is? I know it's in there but it won't come out.

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Time to go prepare for Human Subjects Research Committee Approval, the absolute most fun part of doing research in grad school. I get to fill out a bunch of meaningless forms so that I can do what I was going to do anyway. I hate bureaucracy, partially because I always misspell it.

Seven Deadly Sins

The Seven Deadly Sins:
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? myself
2. What is your weapon of choice? sarcasm
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? no
4. How about of the same sex? so
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? me, it's always me.
6. What is your pet peeve? when people don't tell me something "for my own good" or "because it might hurt me"
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? the longest I held a grudge was for a month.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you have not done in a long time? floss.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? I don't sleep late very often, never been any good at it.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but havent? K8.
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? car trouble.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? no
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? I walk about an hour and a half every other day.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? none

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? ultra healthy pressed fruit drinks.
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? neither
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? an entire bottle of avalanche. bad experience
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yes, often, though I feel better now because I am losing fat.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? a combination of all three.
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? well, not really.s

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? lots and lots, I can't remotely begin to count
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? plenty, it's all about beltaine in the woods
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yes, though not for a good while.
4. Have you "done it"? yes.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? the eyes, a good long eye contact is the sexiest thing ever.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?no. I've never really been propositioned.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? had to? no, done? yes.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? 4
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? hot topic and bath and body works.
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy a small house and give some bums a hundred dollars a piece.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? famous. I would like my word to mean something.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? no, I need fulfillment from work. That's why I'm in grad school for folklore
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yes, I shoplifted as a hobby years ago.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? couple hundred

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? I am too much of a perfectionist to really be satisfied with anything I do.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? grad school
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? I would like to help others.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yes, if I deserved it. but if someone's more qualified then no.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? not really, no
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yes, tests in school.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? nothing at all.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Brenton's body, not in the sex way but in the I want his physique.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? nobody, I'm satisfied with my decorating skills.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? right now, George Bush, so I could stop the stupid war.
4. Have you ever been cheated on? yes, by my fiance.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yes
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? a high metabolism
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no, not really
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? none, does angst count?

The Seven Heavenly Virtues
FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? Quakerism/ universalist Paganism
2. What religion were you raised as? Quaker
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? there's no distincition in my mind.
4. Do you believe in magic? yes.
5. What was the last promise you broke? to trust someone.
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? no, every time I "pray" I mean it.
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? no, I believe that to some degree everyone already is.

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? yes, I did.
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? connection.
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? yes, they're always up. Like right now.
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? yes, I do it occasionally.
6. Do you gamble? not really. just with emotion.
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? maybe?

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? lots
2. What causes have you given money or time to? Habitat for Humanity, lots of anti-war stuff, public radio, other stuff.
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? yes.
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another type? yes, sometimes I wonder why I haven't
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? always
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like food and rent? yes
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? I drove 26 hours out of my way after a friend got ditched by her ride.

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? loneliness
2. What did you do today that was really brave? nothing
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why? nightcrawler, because he is reviled for trying to help but does it anyway.
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? yes
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? more courage
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? yes, but not for about 10 years.
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? I want to lead, but I will follow also.

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? yes
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? I would find my way out of it and try and stop anyone from having to go through with it.
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? no, no way, no how.
4. Which should be guaranteed legal, prostitution or marijuana? both.
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? no.
6. What was your favorite media circus trial? The Dreyfus Affair, because it actually brought to light a social problem in the end.
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? yes

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? food and love
2. Do you collect anything? yes, books and musical instruments
3. Are you addicted to anything? not currently.
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? no
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? cash
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do? get my hopes up.
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? yes, too much.

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? my sister
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? yes
3. Do you take advice when it's given? I try to.
4. What area are you wisest in? trivia
5. Do you drive defensively? always
6. Have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? Would you ever? not really.
7. What did you learn today? nothing.
8. And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue? love, or honesty