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Apr. 27th, 2008 10:17 amSo, we're leaving for Chicago, no later than August, likely no earlier either. It's official. It's settled. It's daunting. It's exciting.
So, leaving Bloomington seems to be my future. It's kind of odd. If you will permit a video game metaphor, it feels like I'm leaving a zone without finishing all the side quests, leaving games behind, things I could be doing and such. However, at the same time, I feel like I'm advancing the main plot, revealing new things more crucial to the heart of the story.
So, now, I need to figure out how I'm doing this. Most of my life has involved leaving home. I've moved every few years my entire life. In a lot of ways, I've lived in Bloomington longer than anywhere else. But I still need to leave it. Looking back, I know that there will be things and people I keep, things and people I leave behind, memories, nostalgia, regret, and a fair amount of sadness.
It's a pisces thing, partially, though one I try to curb in myself. I can get lost in nostalgia, easily spending days looking over old journals, photographs and mementos. To oppose this tendency, I don't take photographs, I don't keep journals, I try to actively compartmentalize my mementos.
So, in many ways, I don't know what I'll be keeping. I don't know what 5 years down the road looks like in terms of my relationship to Bloomington. I'm embarking on the new and trying hard to not be one of those people who talks about the good old days as the happiest time of my life. I'm damn determined to have a moving now be the best time of my life.
So, what the hell does this mean for the present? It means I want to spend sometime with Bloomington folks in advance of departure, maybe wrap up a few more side quests and so forth. Got unfinished business with me? let me know. I'll try to do the same.
Meanwhile, expect my final dance party in Late May/Early June as a farewell party for those leaving Bloomington over the summer.
So, leaving Bloomington seems to be my future. It's kind of odd. If you will permit a video game metaphor, it feels like I'm leaving a zone without finishing all the side quests, leaving games behind, things I could be doing and such. However, at the same time, I feel like I'm advancing the main plot, revealing new things more crucial to the heart of the story.
So, now, I need to figure out how I'm doing this. Most of my life has involved leaving home. I've moved every few years my entire life. In a lot of ways, I've lived in Bloomington longer than anywhere else. But I still need to leave it. Looking back, I know that there will be things and people I keep, things and people I leave behind, memories, nostalgia, regret, and a fair amount of sadness.
It's a pisces thing, partially, though one I try to curb in myself. I can get lost in nostalgia, easily spending days looking over old journals, photographs and mementos. To oppose this tendency, I don't take photographs, I don't keep journals, I try to actively compartmentalize my mementos.
So, in many ways, I don't know what I'll be keeping. I don't know what 5 years down the road looks like in terms of my relationship to Bloomington. I'm embarking on the new and trying hard to not be one of those people who talks about the good old days as the happiest time of my life. I'm damn determined to have a moving now be the best time of my life.
So, what the hell does this mean for the present? It means I want to spend sometime with Bloomington folks in advance of departure, maybe wrap up a few more side quests and so forth. Got unfinished business with me? let me know. I'll try to do the same.
Meanwhile, expect my final dance party in Late May/Early June as a farewell party for those leaving Bloomington over the summer.
