am I asleep? had I slept?

[drydem]

I feel right now like I am coming out of a caffeine-deprivation induced sleep. Like I have spent the last 40 days on auto-pilot, not really living but doing something approximating it. I am sympathizing with media like the opening lines of here comes the sun or the 4th act of fight club. I suppose that's part of the point of lent, but never again with the damn coffee.